Someone saying I’d like to but not today can send me into an overdrive of trying to find someone. What luck on day 353 when I find not one but two people willing to help me out.
I have felt a deep reconnection with those that I have held hands with in the days below. the practice of taking time and making space to spend time with people who are not in my life on a regular basis is something I very much hope to take with me as I finish the year. That’s not to say that I believe myself to be bad at this normally but that I have noticed how much I appreciate the rich diversity and dialogue that takes place when I prioritize seeing people and not just those close to me.
Tis the season to party. Which is rather useful for someone always on the look out for a hand to hold. I have been blessed this week by a generosity of work colleagues and peers that have held my hands in events (staff meetings, work conventions and Christmas parties). In these moments I often wonder how this small action might be changing or adding to the energy in these events and find myself reveling in having a seemingly private moment in public settings.
The end is creeping into my brain. I have arrived in December and my thinking becomes framed with what the end might be, how I should mark it and how I might feel.
As always I have no answers but move forward in search of them.
Day 338 also sees me being interviewed for a canadian student radio station
This year I think my hand holding has offered me a way of coping with my emotions which has allowed my to reflect on them in a deeper way and after a process of time find a way of articulating what I feel and where perhaps that has come from. I have noticed that feeling and being aware of how someone is feeling is rather different from hearing what they say. Words can become clouded in the sensation of the emotion but if you simply have the emotion you can only assume the cause and root of it. It’s a luxury to have had the time and space to put this in my life, even if at times it does not feel luxurious.
you can’t beat a Beatles classic to offer a soundtrack and a blog title.
encountering new people in a new place will always ask for a justification of why I am doing this daily action. The place and the people will ultimate be intrigued as to what it is for and where it has come from, many will assume that it began with a desire to meet strangers. Social wealth is a phrase I have begun to use of late. It explains and captures for me what I am celebrating. Palm to Palm celebrates my social wealth, those that surround me but also the opportunity to increase it and to engage with it in a different way. To take a risk and ask for someones attention, time and affection.